DON'T HATE THE PLAYERS.HATE THE GAME....

last few wks have been horrible! Ever since i came back from Burma, somehow or rather i feel super moody, nothing realli interests me at all! n the irregular slping patterns due to poker or mahjong make it much much worse... in fact i haf neva feel so moody for such a long time! which realli irritates me coz the feeling juz dont go away! the sad things that happen around me seems like keeping the evil flames up..

Reading the bk of the 2 depression gers , i damn scared i kanna depression! so i went to google abt it... to my horror, i got a few symptoms of it! which is realli scary... how is it possible?! i knew it can happen to anyone ,anytime ...but to me??!! i immediately call my friend who had depression and ask for her view abt it...

She told me there's a chance i got minor depression... OMG! but it's veri likely due to the fact that my adrenaline in my body has a sudden decrease that causes this ''cloud of gloom'' that doesnt go away...in dec everyone is hafing holis and almost everyday it's pack meeting friends, hanging out , playing high stakes poker, mahjong , going genting ,planning for trips and the burma trip that causes the huge increase in my adrenaline den suddenly come back home, i had absolutely nothing to do...n that the sudden lack of ''excitement '' and adrenaline causes this sudden moody feeling... n of course some shocking n stupid stuff that happen to my friends around me worsen the effect... but she mentioned tat it would be fine if i juz do some exercise, hanging out wif friends to push up the adrenaline level n before i knew it i will be fine....

the next day i took a cab wif my diving instructor n fabian n i ask him if my panic attacks when i m diving the day before n todae is a symptom of depression(he has depression before also).... he told me no way ! haha... coz most of the time panic attacks due to depression is due to fear of crowd n seeing me tok cock to the ang mohs n the fellow students like my buddies like dat wif no panic attack , he tinks it's impossible the panic attacks are due to depression, most prob juz that i need more time to accustom to the murky surroundings in Palau Hantu...

after that super tiring dive, i went out wif Brook who juz came back from Japan ...chat wif for damn long and we did something that turns on all humans' adrenaline.... GAMBLE!...haha... finally some higher stakes gambling ...hahaha... singapore blackjack wif stakes of at least 10 bucks and no ceiling... not veri big also lar but betta than the normal 1 or 2 bucks crap... n realli POOM!! suddenly the moody feeling juz gone!!! unbelievable!

ONE MORE THING... for those who are reading this n who have friends who juz got together wif an asshole n ur gf broke up wif u to be wif an asshole(ALL OF US must haf some experience in this)... n no matter how much u want to dissuade her, the closer she is wif that asshole.. n now u feel totally helpless.... pls juz let it go.... i believe all their friends are giving her a veri hard time and she isnt feeling veri gd either.... but gers are naturally stupid n dumb n every ger out there thinks that assholes will change for them n turn into an angel(juz ask every ger tht our beloved Edison fucked n dated n they will say they tot so but still ended up onli wif a cock in their mouth)... it's juz like a handicap--- u cant blame a deaf for not hearing properly rite?---

As OUR BELOVED God-like Edison always say...... IT'S ONLY A GAME. DON'T HATE THE PLAYERS.HATE THE GAME....