still studying in the library at this time.... damn sianzz... i seemed to forget everything i learnt abt chem in jc....n no matter how i read them again , i cant remember anything....

everyone now seems to get attached ... Ken juz got attached and so is Andy and Victoria and now it's tat ger i msned ysd( cant reveal the name in case she doesnt wan anyone to noe but the Smux ppl shd noe).... it's kind of affecting me....

i dont like hafing a gf seriously.... i mean what happens if u find the wrong ger... ?? like u realise he or she is not the one after a while but u cant get out of the cycle already.... u are used to hafing him or her studying wif u, taking the bus wif u, going home wif u,watching movies wif u... n coming out fo the cycle means u are alone again... n losing sth u owned n so close to u is hard to bear... n finally u saw someone who might suit u, but u cant juz ditch the ex n juz ask her to fuck off somewhere esle...u will lose a close friend ... go chase the other ger n risk losing everything, especially the company u once sooo enjoyed( and dat's doesnt include the relentless insults of bastard or bitch for the ditched party's friends)... mutual friends haf to choose sides too...

i m officially haven been in a relationship for abt 1 yr ( i cant rememebr the exact date me n florence break up)... n yes i do miss the feeling during this time when everyone is getting attached... but there is no ger for me to chase!!... no ger right now right here interests me enuff to move a step further... n where i going to be is very much uncertain.... this uncertainy is really pissing me off... it has been a yr n this uncertainy has prevented me from trying to move a further step wif many gers... sometimes uncertainty is great, coz u can be excited by the surprises that comes wif it... but too much of it is BAD...

SMU haven gif me any reply yet... n David told me not to gif up optometry... it's teh best course n the hardest course in the country.... n onli the OP1 students do it so this is a chance i shdnt missed! n the advantages of getting the degree is too much to discuss... YES I NOE !!! but 4 yrs of crap shit n a simply lifeless class n school is making me sicker every single day... mayb smu is too lively compared to here.. all teh chances to exchange overseas, smux , trekking n of course the much much prettier gers and fun ppl ... plus teh fact that i haf my own car n space and my beloved food is realli tempting..and also SOccer and mahjong ... REALLI REALLI TEMPTING...

chelsea vs liverpool tonite at 530 am.... shd i watch it?? CHEM is impt but so is LIVERPOOL...